12:00 Noon

okay lets get deep
like the oceans world core
space too earth
like a mother giving her first birth
the childs first breath
a mans death
mother cried
heaven were the mans soul servives

I reacentlly had lunch with a good friend of mine. We talked about life and how thats going. Eventually we got too talking about God and whats he has done for me or how i was doing with God. I told him honestly that I wasn't sure about God and me. I told him that i have been looking for answeres that would prove a God (even though i know there isn't any). I feel like my religion was someone eleses. I mean we go off what other people say. Religion in a scence is what your "mentor"/"pastor" told you about god. I was really destracted that I didn't know what to belive. I beleived somthing someone told me and they leart what someone told them. But what if somewere down that line someone was wrong and totally twisted the actual meaning of being a christian. I never really told my friend I had luch with of what i thought (you know the thought of someone eleses thought). But he plainly said i had too find my own beleife. I was shocked when he said that. He also said that he has also seen God do amazing thing in my life amd asked what he is doing now. I said too him that I felt he wasn't doing anything. But now that I look back I relise he is allowing me to breath, live, love. I have clothes i have a place too stay, friends family people who love me. My friend was a little bit troubled that in my last post i didn't mention God. He asked why and i couldn't answere. I was amazed that i didn't.
I geuss now i am tring to find my own if that makes scence.


it is amazing what a simple wendy's lunch with a friend will make you relise.